I feel like I’m bipolar a lot. Everyday I wake up happy and optimistic for the new day, but somewhere on the 4 minute walk to school, I begin to lose my optimism and spend the rest of my day trying not to let my exhaustion show and holding on to some semblance of who I want to be. And somehow it works. Somewhere in between 7:30am and 8:19am, I actually believe that I am who I’m pretending to be. But then it all comes crashing down when that final bell rings. I walk out of school with my iPod in my ears, no one knows there’s no music playing, just my thoughts. And then on the 4 minute walk home? I revert back to this lonely, sad girl again… It hurts… it hurts so bad…
- Teenage girls 364 days a year:
- Teenage girls on Mother's Day:
That awkward moment when you realize how bad you’re friendzoning someone.
(Source: thehollowbones)
Girls in general are dangerous. Girls like her are downright lethal. ‘Cause she’s got eyes like Bambi and more curves than a NASCAR racetrack.
I made my mom cupcakes for mother’s day today… She yelled at me for not washing the dishes I used and didn’t even touch the cupcakes… I’m pretty sure she’s gonna throw them out actually.
This feeling I have right now is killing me… I have an AP Exam tomorrow, it’s my hardest AP Exam. I also have a lab manual and physics to do. But I’m so unmotivated. I feel like I don’t want to do anything, and I’m not talking about the “oh god im so bored” kind of lazy. I’m talking about the kind of mood when nothing matters anymore. I’m almost positive that I’m going to fail PreCal this semester. And yesterday I nearly destroyed my relationship with my boyfriend, who happens to be the only person who has yet to give up on me. I also feel like shit. All I wanna do is cry but I can’t, because I have chronic migraine disease and it’ll just make me feel worse. I want time to stop. Right where it is. Just make it stop until I’m not drained and devoid of any sort of positiveness. Stop until I feel normal. Stop until I find the strength to continue. Just stop…
About me
Because there are some things no one will ever know. Not because you don't want to tell them. Not because you can't tell them. Not because you don't trust them. But because you just don't have the words for it. You don't know how to tell them. You don't know if they'd understand. You. Just. Don't. Know.
